What ifs… (sorry guys, silly little ponder moment… don’t read if you’re in know mood to feel nostalgic)
It’s summer but it’s not.
Yesterday I had the chance to wonder if there was any possible fate for me that involves not coming to Lakeside in fifth grade… or maybe even ever. Did I need Lakeside? What would I have learned at my old school that Lakeside may never teach me? Who would my friends be? What would my life be?
And know I can’t go back. My ex-class graduated yesterday. I saw them cry together, and hug each other. It was so different from our graduation. These people have been together since Kindergarten… I have known them since Kindergarten. These are the people who I learned to make friends around. We’ll all see each other next year, even if it won’t really be the same. If I had known how many of my friends I’d lose contact with when I left SCDS, I wouldn’t have left. Now this grade of my ex-peers is going out, almost everyone heading to a different school. And I continue at Lakeside.
What would my life be without you guys?
It so weird. I ask my parents about their freidns when they were my age, and they have faded away in their memories. But I look at you guys now and think of how important all of you guys are to me, and it scares me that someday, you guys will be a name and a blurry face. When I say “Juleh” i won’t think “Bottom’s Up!” When I say “Susan”, I won’t remember a certain song we wrote in sixth grade. When I say “Grace” of “Jennie”, my mind won’t leap to images of crazy old cat ladies. And Sophia will not trigger thoughts about hyperactive bilingual knitter-people.
I feel old. :P
