In which Sney agrees with Alec.
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I’m feeling more stressed out than i was before finals right now and i don’t rly have a good reason. i’m sad to be leaving middle school, but also upset that i have so much work to do this summer. school is so much easier. i guess i’m just being a crybaby but i’m sucking at swim team cuz i’m so out of shape and obviously the way to get better is to practice but i hate it. also i have a piano recital this weekend which is no big deal; i’ll do fine, but i have to get back to practicing after the hike. also i want my computer back real bad… my dad said he’d pick it up today but he didn’t so now i have to wait till tmrw-argh! i’ma miss you all this summer. i feel like i’m dropping out of my normal life into my summer life that is miserable and boring even though it never is. i want to be at school doing work/learning so bad. damn i’m so lost. i don’t know what’s wrong with me. i meditated outside for like 10 min then walked around outside for another 20 or so singing quietly to myself and that was nice, but now i feel no better than i did an hour ago. wtf is wrong with me. i guess i’m pissed at my mom constantly reminding me to work cuz school is just finished; i want a freakin vacation. spring/midwinter/long weekends are relaxing. this is not relaxing. gawwwwwd i’m going crazy all out of nowhere. i want it to rain; i want it to be winter… i don’t know if that’s true… i still don’t know why i’m feeling so distraught and it’s really bugging me….
chinmay-notice how i didn’t mention stretch: that’s fun. i need my fckng mental stimulation
i want to talk, like for cereal have a real conversation sitting in the grass by the lake w/ a person; not a computer. fact about me: i love just talking forever but i hardly ever do… like on saturday at julia t’s j party (which was pretty weak btw; only 4 people, 2 of which did not have names beginning w/ j) i talked to julia for like an hour cuz everyone else had left. just about random stuff. sometimes i find julia annoying, but i really enjoyed the conversation… i really do appreciate simply talking which makes sense because humans are social creatures, yet i don’t really like being in large groups of people. one on one discussions, or maybe groups of 3 or 4… i luv. corny alert: i want to lie in the grass w/ someone i love [romantically] like ellie and carl in up and talk for hours………………..
okay; thanks for letting me vent (not that you really had a choice in it at all; oh the irony!)
Just reading this makes me feel stressed. I’m leaving for Kansas in a week, which means I probably won’t get to see susan at all this summer. My vocabulary is dwindling by the second from lack of use. It’s so quiet here. Peaceful? Yes. Exciting? No. Lonely? Yes.
You aren’t a crybaby, Alec. You always seem so happy and I wonder how you do it. Ur very impressive.
Lovelovelovelovelove to all and very good night,
Mrs. T.
P.S. Call me, peeps!
